Lost Feeling?

 (pic taken from http://fc02.deviantart.com/fs46/f/2009/190/4/4/AMNOS__Colorful__by_kumoritan.png)

Today someone from my past suddenly came out of nowhere; however I feel rather happy than upset on hearing that person's voice. Rather surprising--considering how much hurt it costs when that person stranded me. And actually I did typically the same thing to someone that maybe loved me too after he's gone. And suddenly this thought came to my mind, "Hey, when we could communicate better when we've no connection, why don't everyone just become friends? I don't need to keep on pushing people to doing pretty much what they don't want..." Is this the answer what I've been looking for? It's not like we're not happy or something, but sometimes I think I become more and more demanding each and everyday.... and the communication doesn't swift (enough come in hand), especially when he's not around. If he couldn't come then that's it. So what about all the distance we're goin' to go through? I'm not surprised if I don't hear anything from him if things are goin' to be like the way they are right now. Should I say "we're through?" while in fact we're still not goin' anywhere actually. It hurts me to see how easy this is for everyone except us. How can't we be simple? Or 'friends' is what we actually needs? Can't help my tears from falling... Am I that blameworthy to suffer this? Maybe actually I've already thrown someone that should've been mine--a long long time a go. But what can you say? I don't deserve him. I'm not worth enough and never gonna be worth enough for him. Every time my mind wonders, all it took me is to that time when I'm with that horrible--yet maybe the one I truly put hope for--person; yet I blew it. ______________________________________________ Dear Friends (a song by triplane, OST onepiece) Until each and every day sinks, while being covered in mud It's hard to give up those days that I innocently went through Because even for a dreamer like me, that's that, after all... here I am. You may not wait, like the 'jigsaw puzzle'. Someone's "YES" would be the same as "NO" for you Because you always have to be free. When tomorrow's wind has cut through And left the puzzle with missing pieces, Even then, no one's going to blame it (the wind). That day, dreamers like ourselves believe that we're not wrong. Be able to traverse the raging ocean. Cause we know the pain in your heart as well. Even if you get off this ship, and live in a different world In the end, you will surely smile We still have the dream Taking with us this feeling that we were entrusted with. I'll go fight with the stormy ocean and the pain today So that our promise won't turn into a lie. And someday, For you who left our ship and now lives in a different world We'll send the completed puzzle ______________ Mainichi hi ga shizumu made Nazuma mire ni nari nagara Mujaki ni sugoshita hibi mo sute gatai keredo Yumemiru boku ga ite mo sore wa sore de boku dakara JIGUSOO PAZURU mitai ni wa Matte nakute ii Dareka no “Yes” ga kimi ni totte “No” dearu no to onaji you ni Itsudatte jiyuu na hazu dakara Ashita kaze ga toori nuketa toki ni PAZURU ga kakete ita toshitemo Daremo sore wo semetari shinai yo Ano hi yumemita bokura wa Machigai ja nai to shinjite Araku uneru unabara wo watatte ikeru Kimi no mune no itami datte Bokura wa shitte iru kara Moshimo kimi ga kono fune wo kudarite Chigau sekai ni ita toshite mo Saigo ni wa kitto waraeru yo Ima demo bokura wa yume wo mite iru yo Takusareta sono omoi mo nosete Areta kono unabara wo itami to tatakatte kyou mo yuku Yakusoku ga uso ni nara nai you ni Soshite itsuka Bokura no fune wo kudarita chigau sekai ni iru kimi ni Kanseishita PAZURU wo todoke you ____________________________ 毎日陽が沈むまで 泥まみれになりながら 無邪気に過ごした日々も捨て難いけれど 夢見る僕が居てもそれはそれで僕だから ジグソーパズルみたいには まってなくて良い 誰かの「Yes」が君にとって 「No」であるのと同じように いつだって自由なはずだから 明日　風が通り抜けた時に パズルが欠けていたとしても 誰もそれを責めたりしないよ あの日夢見た僕らは 間違いじゃないと信じて 荒くうねる海原を渡って行ける 君の胸の痛みだって 僕らは知っているから もしも君がこの船を下りて 違う世界に居たとしても 最後にはきっと笑えるよ 今でも僕らは夢を見ているよ 託されたその想いも乗せて 荒れたこの海原を痛みと戦って今日も行く 約束が嘘にならないように そしていつか 僕らの船を下りた違う世界に居る君に 完成したパズルを届けよう (pic taken from http://fc02.deviantart.com/fs46/f/2009/190/4/4/AMNOS__Colorful__by_kumoritan.png) lyrics from http://www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/4383/triplane/dear-friends.html