Ameru's blog

Eversince I was a child, as far as I can remember, my parents (esp. my mother) always told me the sole importance of being a woman is to be someone's wife (!) and bear his child (!!). You know, it's indeed imprinted deeply in my mind, since I was three years old that my existence only verified by me being a perfect girl and mother. And what makes it worse, I always told that no matter what, we have to have a girl as a successor--well our tribe is matrilineal. I was raised to belief this. My life isn't exactly Shakespeare's, yet it's kinda full of tragedy and unexpected turns. See, these things aren't good for young minds since one cannot be free from the aim for being someone's wife (!!!) and I've dated guys with no intention on getting married anytime soon. So yeah, it was chaotic. I was too naïve to read the situation back then and have no guidance from my parents--they're strict and conservative, still are up 'till now. No way they will give...

Gosh. I'd like to feel just once an ordained duty to be a protector of a petite version of me. While fact is most of the blabbers condemned me eternally just for pointing out that they in fact have bad upbringings--both socially, and mentally--though I'd still care enough to show unnecessary gratitude to respond to them at all. Although most of my own social experiences ended up in some kind of awkward dispositions--marked by the other party often got offended over almost hilly-billy acts and less-unlikely-favorable-to-them remarks and remove any kind of attachment with me thusly, I have no remorse whatsoever for any past events regarding this matter. Once, one of them came raided my writings here in my blog and got her pants on fire (although I care less whether she's a liar ot not, since I sensed false life braggings from any of her postings on the social media). F.y.i, nobody really care enough to read my blogs, so thanks for putting the rainbow in my sky for me. S...

Selain MLM dan rokok, ada satu hal lagi yang saya bener-bener ga tahan: Mama Drama.  ------- (Warning: postingan ini bikin emak-emak hardchore kejang-kejang. Use it wisely. 😂  Move along at your own risk. ) ------- Semua ibu-ibu baru ini (seumuran sama saya) kelakuannya sangat tipikal di media sosial macam facebook dan path. Terlalu banyak membagi informasi mengenai anak-anaknya dan sangat sangat sangat emosional jika diingatkan ( mama bear will bite you to death! ). Saya sampai pada satu titik dimana saya sangat yakin bahwa mungkin dulu saya tidak benar-benar berteman dengan mereka, karena jelas sekali saya di luar lingkaran mereka (dari segi bahasa, kehidupan, dan persepsi) (Semua ilustrasi saya hapus karena yang punya drama emosi..) Panggilan tipikal: si anu mamanya anu Yang bikin saya paling sadar kalo saya bukan temannya lagi itu adalah saat saya lihat statusnya dan komen-komen di statusnya, semua orang adalah mama/papa/ayah/bunda/kakek/nenek dari nama si...