Ameru's blog

Well, well, well. What d'you know? At first you were their friends, but right there at the moment they don't need you anymore or despise you with hatred and envy you with all their might--you just turn into the object of their cruelty! Disguise in their keen elegance, never did they actually revealed their truer form infront of promising 'customers'. They even can agitate people into hating each other--and some people really take it personally and even put grudge to people they don't even know! Sick isn't it? Well, they DO dressed nice, covering all that evil devilish thoughts behind their artificial skins. But once you see them, they're nothing but ol' malicious hags, lurking around for prey. Their smiles aren't genuine. Their acts always for the sake of themselves and themselves only--whether to bossing around, getting ETERNAL youth (?), or just bullying others that potentially harmful for their mighty being. I wonder why some people still can'...

I still don't understand until now why girls like to gather up? ( I have my girlfriends too, but they seem to not be around when I need 'em...so, wth ). When they gather up the things they talked are relatively the same, if not about boys, about other girls and their gossips, or bragging themselves. And how hilarious it can be when other girls acted so nice in your face, while in fact they talk dirty behind your back! You wouldn't know how savage and malicious a girl can be, if someone offended her brag-about-stuff and perhaps just state as a better person than she is! The thing is, after I keenly did an observation on facebook , obviously still there're typically three things showed up there from girls: (1) Brag (2) Envy (3) Anxiety Things other than those three stand irrelevantly and not worthy enough ( from my perspective ) to be viewed anyway... Take example this girl, always talked about her boyfriend, as if she's afraid she'd be taken by someone else. Whil...

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when is my turn? wouldn't i love, love to explore out of the bubbles? wandering free, wish i could be part of your world -pricess ariel on the little mermaid- I feel lonely. That's why I haven't showered yet, though my faculty trustee expecting me on 9. Gosh, i'm such a lazy girl, all I do is just browsing (on a thing I dremt of buying), open facebook, plurk, twitter, and this stupid blog. I gotta get going, yet I'm still stuck in here. Damn, really gotta get going now.

  (pic taken from  http://fc02.deviantart.com/fs46/f/2009/190/4/4/AMNOS__Colorful__by_kumoritan.png ) Today someone from my past suddenly came out of nowhere; however I feel rather happy than upset on hearing that person's voice. Rather surprising--considering how much hurt it costs when that person stranded me. And actually I did typically the same thing to someone that maybe loved me too after he's gone. And suddenly this thought came to my mind, "Hey, when we could communicate better when we've no connection, why don't everyone just become friends? I don't need to keep on pushing people to doing pretty much what they don't want..." Is this the answer what I've been looking for? It's not like we're not happy or something, but sometimes I think I become more and more demanding each and everyday.... and the communication doesn't swift (enough come in hand), especially when he's not around. If he couldn't come then that...

Beberapa waktu yang lalu saya menonton film The Lost Bladesman (coba lihat di http://www.sinema-21.com/movie-the-lost-bladesman-2011/) , salah satu film (lagi) yang berlatar Jaman Tiga Kerajaan ( Samkok / The Romance of Three Kingdoms ) di Cina. Film ini menampilkan dilema Guan Yu antara tetap dengan Tsao Tsao/Cao Cao atau kembali kepada Liu Bei. Entah kenapa film ini beda karena menampilkan sifat Cao Cao yang terkesan wise dan sederhana (ada adegan macul-macul segala...@___@), imej yang sangat berbeda dari yang terpapar dalam Red Cliff dan Red Cliff II ataupun di cerita manga Legenda Naga yang menampilkan sebaliknya,Cao Cao yang ambisius , extravagant , dan berangasan ^o^;. Meski film ini di-rating jelek oleh banyak pihak, (5.8 / 10 di imdB misalnya), serta tidak begitu laku di pasaran--mungkin karena sulit dicerna dan membosankan bagi siapa-siapa yang tidak familiar dengan setting ceritanya ( samkok ), namun bagi saya cukup memberi pencerahan, karena dapat melihat kisah ini da...

I used to think that maybe this is the designated thing to be done...but somehow, something in my head keep on repeating saying that this is not fair. Though i know, i should be thankful for what i get, but this jealousy kept eating me alive. I hate to be treated unfair, since i know that actually i am the best in this ****, but yet given the least benefit of all. Do they really don't have budget....or they just want to eat more? Whatever.. I just don't enjoy this feeling of uneasyness. I hate it. I hate the way they promised one thing and then took it back...right on my face..at the time i already hopping for itn eagerly. And my solitude time would be last longer than i expected. Screw them..screw the authorihy. And hey...what did i expected anyway?? Should've known better that this would obviously be the outcome.