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#28: Loving Someone

 Day 28 of 30 days writing challenge

Loving Someone

When you truly love someone, you just know that you clicked with them. Was it the touch, the talks, the smile, or the gentle stare, everything was in line just for once. You can talk for hours and hours without even getting bored. You always long to be with him. You know you wanted to be with him.


Look into his eyes

As eyes are the window to the soul. You'll know you love someone and someone loves you back when you see the reflection in his eyes. You can't really lie about loving someone, at some point every lies will be revealed.

You can't force your love, you don't ask to be loved. It really doesn't matter how the world see your lover, in your eyes they'll always be perfect. Though sometimes along with times you'll be weary and it's hard to keep things precisely as they were before, but you've got to nourish the love you had (and have) so it will continue to grow. Still learning this since I've been through so many toxic relationship and it's not easy to trust people again. But you have to, and you can.  

I'm not really a good poet and can't really compose a sonnet of love. But I know that this is what I've been asking God about. At the times of my despair, after the wrecked previous marriage, I played this song over and over on my keyboard.

And believe it or not, the song is like a prayer as somebody actually came to me. It was him. And actually I wasn't expecting it. And after that, things just went swiftly and here we are now. He's like a total opposite of me, and we are what one might called a complimentary for each other. He has what I don't have and vice versa. And love is not about perfection, it's about trust, about accepting flaws, and to be able to support each other and to grow old together. I'm still scared and traumatised, yet praying to God may what we have (this love for each other) will be forever this time. Amen.

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