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No such thing

life is just a big bad joke created by God while He's bored...
if it's not, there should be more than 7 billion kinds of rationality, morality, freedom, and justice... but then again, ...
... why should life focused on humans? while we, acting sooo "smart", done more harm than any good to this world


and even a single dictator of some rotten invasive country could done massive destruction to this world.. what kind of justice is that?




"Equity" is such a lip-service thingy... truth is, life is never equal.






Just like a pan-full of pizza... you can't really know the taste unless you try it.
You can never really tell, did you get the slice as equally in portion as others'?
It would tasted better if you eat with friends... (and thus the size of your slice won't matter)...but, what are friends to you? What are you to your friends?
What's the use of friends if you only think of yourselves while you're with them and you never think of them as much as you think of yourselves?


Such a dilemma.. humans are social creatures, as well as narcissistic beings... 
Us humans born to have double-standard. That's what caused all of the fuss in the world, the power of 'free-will' that is endorsed in absolute power for ones and null for others. 




And me, and my standard of morality is questionable.


I'm not a clean person. I cheat. At times. But I know my reason for that: I aimed for something, tried to get it, but saw no point on doing so, and cheated. Unfair for people who's been cheated, but for me it's fair enough. You don't give me what I clearly asked you, then I cheat. It's a pity I couldn't come clean before that, but maybe it's just because I'm always too perky and dorky and too scared to end something that's already broken. And to make it official, I cheat. 


Sick.


But what is immoral to you?
Lovers don't have that strong bondage in the relationship. The fact is, that piece of sheet called "marriage certificate" should have stronger bond than none. Even though a lot of people cheated no matter they're married or not, for me that paper still means much. If we have no paper, we have no bondage. All your sweet talks, nonsense. Would be okay for now, but don't expect any fidelity if you don't give any certainty.
For me, this is the deal.



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