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A long coming dream

It's almost time for my ultimate dream to be emanated. The thrill went up here to my spine and made me almost deliberately lost my mind. Honestly, this is exactly what I felt about almost two and a half years ago--though this time maybe I felt a li'l bit more excited and secured (!)

But hell, still there're doubts inside of me. Can't win these feelings over since obviously i'm not that "charming" at all. I hope anything from my past don't bring any jinx over what becoming of today--the manifesto of my childhood dream.

Eternally (like I've been feeling like this forever ^__^;), ever since I can set any dream place to be, I decided that that place will be a place that somehow I can anchored to, even if it's only for a short time. That place, and the other place are where all my dreams went to. Dear God, please relinquish my dream into reality. Amen.

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