Social exclusion due to the friggin' coursework

Do I have a life?

What do I expect now, knowing the fact that I am as useless as I was yesterday?

It seems harder and harder my days here. I admit it, I've been enjoying the travelling around part, the laughter, the joy of skipping the duties from workdays. But the fun part seemed to ceased now. I feel more useless, smaller and insignificant now. Feel dumb, boxed by my own perspective of how I could change anything (at all) while in fact I can't even change my self.

The other fact I know is no matter how hard you've tried, at some point there always be a bitter-sweet result (or should I said just the "bitter" one?) of realizing that I, and only I served as the stupidest person alive. What should you do, being the lowest of the caste--growling, and scavenging around in someone else's dumpsters.

I feel down,

Blue,

or maybe red.

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